rant

1. more than half of the isen 459 teams have been selected already.  i’m fine with just randomly getting assigned to a team, because i didn’t really talk to anyone in my classes anyway, but i’m seriously hoping i don’t get a bunch of slacker flake teammates.  last thing in the world i need.  

2. there is ONE specific class (isen 411) that i would REALLY like to take this semester.  technically i don’t need it to graduate, but it fulfills a tech elective requirement for the engineering project management certificate i’m working towards.  for some reason this class is always the first ie class to fill up during registration, so i immediately filled out a force request.  school starts in FIVE DAYS and STILL ABSOLUTELY NOTHING.  right now my scholarship is suspended because i’m under 12 hours, waiting for that ONE CLASS.  i have to call the ie office tomorrow to see if this force request will even happen at all, otherwise i need to take a random mgmt class to complete my certificate.  fuuuuuuuuuu. 

3. i wish i could have gone back to college station earlier.  with the exception of the externships i’m doing (did one today, and one more tomorrow), i’ve literally been an amoeba this break.  useless and oozing around and taking up space.  if i had gone back earlier, i could have picked up a few hours at work to make some extra money, gone to talk to my adviser about (2), read up on the 459 project portfolio so i’ll at least have a vague notion of what’s going on, taken care of mgc stuff, hang out with my roommates (and others…..hehe).  but no, i’m still in houston, typing up my self-pity into a tidy tumblr post.  

4. i’m stressing about mgc.  i understand the reason behind dividing up duties or division of power or whatever the term is, but sometimes the only way to make sure things get TAKEN CARE OF is to DO IT YOURSELF.  when something doesn’t go off as planned, which i have a strong feeling will happen, it’ll be on me.  i really can’t afford to do things last minute this time around.  maybe “micro managing” does have a negative effect on society and a team as a whole, but sometimes THINGS NEED TO BE DONE NO MATTER WHAT.  

5. i don’t know why i’m so unmotivated in my job hunt…well actually i do know a couple of reasons why.  yet even with my impending graduation and my parents constantly on my case, i can’t bring myself to TRY HARDER.

/end rant